Weird

It's weird to live in my head right now. To feel the conflicting thoughts and emotions. I feel so at home, so comfortable, so at peace in this city. Chicago fits, it feels like the right place for me. An amazing spot that I feel lucky to be experiencing. A place I know I was meant to get to. For instance, today, I was on a boat on the lake soaking up the sun while looking at this incredible, stunning skyline view. Sure, that's a pretty sweet deal, but again, I feel like it fits. And what feels weird is that I also miss the people I left in VT so incredibly much. I truly hurt thinking about them. It's not to say I am not making friends here, I am it is just slow and it's different knowing the people I left in VT. Some days I walk through the city experiencing something unique and I think about a specific person or group and how much I wish they were beside me, experiencing it. That's what is weird, learning how to feel these conflicting emotions of being so happy in a place, knowing it fits and being excited about meeting new people but simultaneously standing at a specific spot or place thinking about a friend or friends that would appreciate that spot so much, make that spot even better. I have to continue to figure out how to make them live side by side.

It's funny, leaving a place, how hard it gets to connect with the people that I know will forever be my family. These people that are the only piece of me being in this amazing place seem "off", I talk to so very rarely now. But I feel them every day, which makes it...weird. I feel them all the time...a smell reminds of this person, a song reminds of that person. But would it be the right place in my life to be here with those people who made my life so complete? I think that's part of the greater plan...they can't be here bc it'd be too easy and I'd miss things. But to know they are with me everyday, it is a double edged sword of awesome and sad...to be so incredibly psyched here, yet feel the pull of people I wish were with me.

Chicago...is my kinda town

Imagine that, I haven't blogged in ages. I'm really being bad about this lately!! Ok...I'm going to make a serious effort to blog at least once a week now. Soe has inspired me again to blog and I realize that it could be a fun way to talk about my life in the new city for my family afar in VT to read about between actual catching up sessions.

SO. Chicago. Three weeks ago I landed in the Windy City, or drove in I should say. I have been traveling a good bit for work so sometimes it almost feels like a long work trip here since I'm so used to being in random places. But I actually feel really at home here, the city fits. I was totally scared that it wouldn't, that I'd get here and what I had built up in my mind just wouldn't be quite right. But the city agrees with me. It's fun, it's vibrant, it's friendly, it's engaging. I don't feel overwhelmed by it.

I'm still getting into the swing of things with life and making myself meet new people and be open to new friends. It's weird to not have a safe group of people to call any night to get dinner with or have a glass of wine, or have people who know you really well who you don't have to try with. But it's also exciting stretching that muscle again too...I just have to continue to push myself to do it and learn about new people and see what fits.

Work is bananas...it's currently after 7pm Central time and I'm still at work. Pretty standard. It's going to be pretty much madness from now until the middle of September. But the flip side is, I'm loving the work and the challenge, I'm learning a ton, I love the people I work with and I have a great team and it feels good. I can see myself growing already and it's exciting.

I miss you all in VT...I am pretty sure you are the only ones that may read this w/the exception of Andrew and my mom. VT is in my heart every day, and certain things of the city remind me of it too which is good.

Ok. The next posts will be more fun...things going on in the city, but I felt an intro post was needed for the Chicago chapter of my life.

I'm off like a hat in a hurricane.