Walking backwards to move forward

"I think people should realize there are other lanes, not just theirs for only them."

I have a new favorite musician...Matt Pond PA. His song, "Brooklyn Stars" is where the above quote comes from. His melodies and sounds are almost like a drug.

I had some interesting experiences this past weekend that had a more lingering effect than I would have expected. One thing that at the time seemed like something that would provide some clarity ended up setting me back a step or two mentally. Other happenstances brought up memories and questions. Someone once said progress and direction do not always run together. Sometimes you have to take 10 steps back to move one step forward. Those 10 steps back, watching the goal as it slowly moves out of sight, can seem so wrong, can hurt so much that you don't understand why you can't just sprint to the finish.

This past weekend, amidst some extremely fun outings and events w/my friends who were visiting, I experienced my first few steps backward. Some of them voluntary, others coincidental, others involuntary. Some seemed like a way to move a few steps forward only to actually cause the opposite. When you feel as though you have digressed, fallen behind, lost pace, maybe that is just a way to take you back to a place you had been before but maybe had missed something. Maybe it's a way to put you back at a crossroads, a blinking light and look at things in a different light. Why else would we have to take steps back to truly move forward? Surely life can't be that inefficient to just push you back for the hell of it.

"When it's over, why can't it be gone." - Matt Pond PA